Funny how my friends tell me they have been attempting to petition for you to come back into my life. Funny how they misunderstand that I want you to.


I would not mind if you do, but I would rather that you not feel like you're doing me a favor and giving me what I want by coming back into my life. Even if you don't, I don't want you to be smug that I want you back in my life. I don't. Inwardly, I might think about you a lot....even now I still do from time to time. But outwardly...I stopped expecting you a long time ago.

So even when my life seems great and better without you--to know that you're not doing well makes me worried for you. I'm not sure how you have this effect on me. But it's no longer my job to make sure you're alright. I don't want to hear about you anymore, so please stop letting yourself leak back into my life.

I Can't Lie

I must have been a fool to love you so hard for so long.
So much stronger than before, but so much harder to move on.
I can't lie.
You're on my mind--stuck inside my head.
I want to feel your heart beat for me instead.