don't you hate

those sleepless nights? those nights when you've got a lot to think about and thoughts just jump at you from nowhere?

it's almost like I want to quit life. quit everything. quit and just sit there in a corner, waiting for it to end. I've been wanting that. I want it to all end.

I want the taunting to stop. I want to be free of everything. I want a day where I don't have to think about anyone else, or schoolwork, or someone's else's dreams for me.

I want someone else to think for a while. I want they to go sleepless for a night while I tuck away on my bed, carefree until I have to wake up again. I want it to be finished. For once, I want to go to sleep feeling like something was completed, feeling like I can just fall back on my pillow, close my eyes and sleep will come to me and make me better.

I want someone else to care for a while, to be mystified by me, to be pulled around by me instead of the other way around. I want someone to lie awake dissecting my words and action, wondering what I'm thinking, what I want, what I want to feel.

I don't want to say that my life is devoid of caring and affection, 'cause it's not. I just simply want someone to be in my place, doing what I do, so that I know there's someone out there doing the same things for me.