HP continues and music amuses

“’So the boy…the boy must die?’ asked Snape quite calmly.
‘And Voldemort himself must do it, Severus. That is essential.’
Another long silence. Then Snape said, ‘I thought…all these years…that we were protecting him for her. For Lily.’”
After finding out that Harry’s been trained and raised for the purpose of “dying at the right time”, Snape was asked “Have you grown to care for the boy after all?”
Snape then cast a Patronus (something that requires your happiest memories), cried, and said “Always” which….I take to mean that he’s always done so for the sake of Lily Potter. I also take it to mean that the memory was, no doubt, of Lily Potter. At this point, we know his Patronus is a doe…which Snaped used to lead Harry to the sword he was looking for. Why? Why lie to yourself about caring for someone? In order to lie to yourself about caring for someone else? This is driving me insane…I hope to never be like this. Or do I? Argh….

Again, it seems music wants to amuse me. I’m reading about how Snape rummaged through the house and found a letter written by Lily and took the part that said “love, Lily” along with a picture of her smiling for himself while shedding--no doubt painful--tears…the song playing? “Epilogue (Relief)” by Apocalyptica. Funny how the music didn’t sound like relief to me. I hear tears; don’t you?

It amused me even more, trying to cheer me up through Harry’s walk to death, passing Ginny on the way. It played “I Can Do Better” by Avril Lavigne. The upbeat melody….the fast drums, the title…it all made me smile. I switched to “Innocence” and….still fitting for the mood. Oh music, how you always fit when I want you to…